What was your first kinky sexual experience? If you haven’t had one yet, talk about what you hope to have happen.
I haven’t had any sexual experiences, other than CSA.
I honestly have no idea what I want. I don’t know if I could actually create a real-life scenario that would a) appeal to me, and b) be ethical and reasonably safe.
I’ve thought about drug play, but that seems really risky, and it’s not like you can safeword away a high. So if I ever act on it, I’ll probably do roleplay.
I also don’t think I want to do diaper/incontinence play, because it just seems gross in reality. I’m a pretty squeamish person, and even hearing someone peeing in a toilet squicks me out, so I doubt I’d be able to handle wetting or messing.
But maybe if I played with a partner role-playing other neurological issues? I haven’t found anyone with a fetish for aphasia, apraxia, agnosia, etc, but there are people with paralysis fetishes. If we role-played me paralyzing them, that could be cool. Or maybe an adult kid, we could have them act out being unable to speak or dress themselves and I see it as aphasia/apraxia and they feel like they’re being little?
I also feel like I’d enjoy their disability to be at least somewhat unexpected. Maybe we come up with a list, and they randomly match symptoms to different keywords, and then I try to figure out which keyword means which symptom? I have no idea if any of this would actually work in real life, but it’s an interesting thought.